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per1shed · 3 years ago

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no ones takes it serious that i have to eat every 3 hours at least in the daytime bc if not i will literally just pass out ??? and that that’s the whole reason why it’s so hard for me to leave to go inpatient or in a group home bc no one understands it, doctors can’t find anything so it must be psychosomatic idk but it’s still there and i’ve been struggling with this for months and months and it’s not getting better and i’m so scared of leaving my home bc i can’t even cook/buy groceries for myself bc of my dizziness. this is the only thing that makes it so panic inducing to go anywhere bc what if there’s not gonna be food? am i just supposed to pass out like?????

#not even just that but i have to eat a whole meal every time #i already talked about it with the clinic and theyte ok with me bringing my own food to eat in between breakfast lunch and dinner but idk #about the group home i have to call them #i couldn’t sleep last night bc it worries me so much and makes me so angry that no one takes this shit serious #i’m not complaining about ANYTHING else this is the ONLYYY thing that makes me not want to go #but that’s not an option i literally wanna kill myself #my social worker and therapist are both like just try to overcome it!! like ??????? i’m not fucking imagining this #i’ve had countless encounters of me almost passing out literally not being able to move and being sweaty and shaky bc i had to eat and no #matter how many times i’ve tried to ignore it I CANT bc my body just shuts down i’m so fucking tired #food mention #l

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